Is anyone else like me?

I'm a 13 year old girl, i think im pretty and i have alot of friends. but at home im really poor i have nice clothes but i have never had a sleepover because of my home don't say " there not your real friends if they judge your house" whatever okay i don't care, sometimes i just feel like crying for no reason sometimes at school for lunch and recess i go sit in the bathroom because i don't feel like seeing anyone its not that i get bullied because i dont i never have i just feel like being away from people, i feel like being alone by myself i think of suicide sometimes but i never do it. i get sad when someone asks to have a sleepover with me because i have to lie and say im not allowed to have anyone over i have to do that with everyone. when someone asks me what im doing for my birthday i have to lie and say i dont know yet then change the subject, ive never had a birthday in which i had i friend with me. sometimes i feel like giving up on life and start doing drugs. i want to know if there's anyone out there in the world that is like me that understands? it would hep alot. thank you